So much happening

Jordan is officially graduated. I had a hard time at the family dinner and dad hugging me made it all that much harder. I am still not ready for him to grow up. Letting go of a child is like losing control over what they will go through. I guess I am not the best mom. They have gone through a lot in their lifetime. But I have been right by their side to help them through it. Now I have to let him leave and let him do this on his own. As a mom it is hard to not be there at all times.

Kenzie can attest to that. At state track I had to be in the same hotel as the team. I wasn't trying to get in the way. I let her have her space. I would waive from afar. I just wanted to be there if she needed me. And yes, there were times that her and Jessie would come to our room and visit. She did very well at track for her freshman year. I know she was very disappointed. Her times were not her best. But I was still proud of her for even making it. I needed to boost her spirits, so I let her in on some of my secrets. I tried out for cheerleading....did not make it. I tried out for track...did not do well. And by no means made it to state. I have not succeeded an many things. But she has. I do hope she felt better. It did shock her a little and made a smile come to her face.

Ryker is back to Tball again. He looks forward to the Gatorade he gets every Tuesday and Thursday. I always had Gatorade in the fridge for Jord and Kenzie's track and he wanted one so bad. I would tell him no, it has way too much salt in it and that it was for Jordan and Kenzie when they ran track to help them replace what they lost. Well guess what he wanted when he knew he was going to be active. Yep, Gatorade. I get him the little ones and he thinks he is so grown up. Oh well I guess I can water them down and he will never know the difference. Kids are so funny.

We miss you all and love you. I look forward to reading your postings. I am not good at getting on blogger. I love facebook. I am a junkie. Love you. Here is a video that I made for Jordan and we had it playing at the family dinner. And yes, this was the cause of a lot of my crying.